Doorways I

Doorways…. a fascinating symbol of transition and transformation – a passageway, like a pass in the mountains. Standing in the doorway…. perhaps we look back on what lies behind us….. it’s the moment where we have to decide, have to commit to that leap of faith into the new, into the unknown.

Art for me is intricately related to what happens when we step into the doorway. Because art is all about life, and life to me is all about what happens on our journey to the next doorway.

[This Doorway page right here will soon become a portal to another website in progress that is specifically relegated to matters of a more esoteric and mystical nature. If you feel so called upon, or are just curious, step into this Doorway for a little preview. Unlike many doorways in life, this one you can stroll through casually, back and forth as you please!]

I have noticed that some of my favorite artists have a fascination with doorways. De Kooning is one who employed ‘random’ images of doorways shimmering between layers of paint. For some it invokes the idea of ‘having a way out’. For some it would be more like a way ‘in’.

Just before I wrote about stepping into “the doorway”. Maybe “a doorway” is more appropriate. Maybe there are many doorways. Maybe each moment holds fur us an infinite amount of doorways, an infinite amount of directions – just as an infinite amount of lines radiate out from a single point. Mathematics and Geometry have a way of zooming in and out of sacred space.

Dervish – the spinning wise men of the amazing Sufi tradition … the mystical arm of the Islam that hosts legendary people like the great poet Rumi and other illuminates…
It’s been said the word ‘der’ means ‘door’….. spinning in the doorway to the beyond…

 

(to be continued)

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Songs of Remembrance
for alto, soprano and 2 percussionists
(text 1)

Angelic voices
of a timeless past
a single melody
embracing
an entire universe
of water drips
dissolving worldly sorrow
into an Ocean
where you and i have
no name.
**
For a fleeting moment
time’s void held me
right there
on the outer shores
of the Promised Land
‘Tis these memories so dear
that make me fend
with Lion’s roar
kneel in prayer
in barren dessert’s sand.
**
So far,
and yet so
near
I don’t know if I’m
dreaming anymore
running for dear life
Anywhere
but here!
**
March 22, 1998

Hovering

Songs of Remembrance
for alto, soprano and 2 percussionists
(text 2)
**
Numbing memories
frozen in ice
like old ghosts
revisiting
from times past
unable
or so it seems
to toss the iron mask
bare my soul
have naked eyes.
**
Have I become
afraid
to live
for fear of
drowning
in my own
darkest waters?
**
Nailed without failing
by indelible imprints
my eyes
reach
up and high
a distant eagle’s rise.
**
Here I am
hovering
above this
river divide
between
the living
and the dead.
**
March 22, 1998

Open the Gates of Fear!

Open the Gates of Fear! –

Lead me to the edge
where I dare not tread
my Heart, blazing afire
foolish illusions
scorched on Phoenix’ pyre.

That I Am
forevermore
a Sun among Suns
rejoicing
in rays of splendid sound

Celestial musings
for each and all to hear!

 NY March 22, 1998

Third text of “Songs of Remembrance”
for alto (voice), soprano (voice) and 2 percussionists

 

Approaching the familiar through the unfamiliar

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Approaching the familiar through the unfamiliar.

It always stuck with me how a saxophone player described gaining a whole new perspective on saxophone playing by doing an in-depth study of trumpet players.

By stepping into the unfamiliar, and necessarily translating back into the ‘familiar’, we are required to invent a new language of our own – new words, new colors, new imagery, new tools.

Nothing more instructive than dwelling in a foreign country for a while.
Or camping out in the wilderness.

Because of this, I love to explore that unfamiliar terrain in the arts. Stepping out….One of such explorations takes place when we ‘step out’ from one art form into another. Creating music perhaps, but thinking of creating a poem. The language of poetry becomes the overriding principle, and all music ‘rules’ and history have to cede to that. In effect, all music rules have been suspended and replaced only by concerns of poetic language. New music ‘rules’ might have to be invented, or adapted.
There are endless excursions we can make like that, mixing up two or more art forms:
Listen to a free improvisation, structured – or freely composed -,  partly as a poem, partly as a painting, partly as an architectural sculpture.
We might see a still… a moment in black and white, light evoking silence.
…Hear a poem, thrusts of meaning singing off the page, slowly filling the empty space between our beacons of known meaning.

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(to be continued)

Songs of Remembrance

Songs of Remembrance

(text 1)

Angelic voices
of a timeless past
a single melody
embracing
an entire universe
of water drips
dissolving worldly sorrow
into an Ocean
where you and i have
no name
For a fleeting moment
time’s void held me
right there
on the outer shores
of the Promised Land
‘Tis these memories so dear
that make me fend
with Lion’s roar
kneel in prayer
in barren dessert’s sand
So far,
and yet so
near
I don’t know if I’m
dreaming anymore
running for dear life
Anywhere
but here!
Songs of Remembrance
(text 2)
Numbing memories
frozen in ice
like old ghosts
revisiting
from times past
unable
or so it seems
to toss the iron mask
bare my soul
have naked eyes
Have I become
afraid
to live
for fear of
drowning
in my own
darkest waters?
Nailed without failing
by indelible imprints
my eyes
reach
up and high
a distant eagle’s rise
Here I am
hovering
above this
river divide
between
the living
and the dead
Songs of Remembrance
(text 3)
That I Am
Open the Gates of Fear! –
Lead me to the edge
where I dare not tread
my Heart, blazing afire
foolish illusions
scorched on Phoenix’ pyre.
That I Am
forevermore
a Sun among Suns
rejoicing
in rays of splendid sound

 

Celestial musings,
for each and all to hear!
NY March 22, 1998

 

The Path of Love (not Fear)

The Path of Love  (not Fear)
or the under-appreciated practice of dying a little bit every day

It has been said:
of my own I am nothing.
.
(Don’t be afraid to die)
.
Imagine!
to die our sense of self
into that bleak void,
that Big Nothing.
……………………..
.
Don’t be afraid to die.
.
.
Don’t be afraid to die.
I mean now, today, and again tomorrow. Die a thousand deaths. Don’t worry: our true self is indestructible. What dies over and again is our ego, everything we cling to, our fears, our mistaken identities, our hopes, our regrets.
With every death we die we free ourselves up, we shed another layer, like a snake
sheds an old skin.
Another step closer to our radiant self.
.
Don’t be afraid to die.
(even if I am,
still,
at times,
again)
.
.
Let go
Let go of what we’re not.
Our jobs, our mortgage
If we were right
If we got it right
If we’re good enough –
there is no such thing
.
Except for in our mind.
That inner voice
Rattling on
Interrupting our peace
ego? id?
old voices that
slipped in
unnoticed
maybe when we were young
maybe yesterday
so insistently
they ring true
.
Be a farmer
weed your garden
plot by plot
so you can see it
holds flowers
as far as you can see
.
(Don’t be afraid to die)
.
Immerse your vessel
let it go
under
and be lost
Lost, and with loss,
scary leap
of faith,
that
is our doorway
into a realm
still familiar to newborns
and Fools,
 – but we
deepdown, secretly,
remember
and
hold it
in our heart
ashamed, stricken and
grieving
that fated separation
eons ago
.
Don’t be afraid to die.
.
Have your vessel filled
overflowing
submerged
till
your heart runs over
with the love
that we were
created from
the love
that is our
breath
the love
that runs through every
vein
the love
that holds every nano cell of our core
and every distant
galaxy we
have not found yet
.
(Don’t be afraid to die)
.
call it God
call it Nothing
call it Everything
call it anything under the sun
There are a thousand names to
try to pinpoint the Unspeakable
it really doesn’t matter
Certainly not to the One
.
.
NY 4.2.2013